Interiors of my apple.
Archive for October, 2011
Egad! It seems that a childhood illness I once suffered may have made a late-life return. The doctors agree that it looks like tuberculosis. That is the good news, assuming that we can agree, TB is preferable to the big C.
This is the point in my once workaholic creative life where I am trying to convince myself that slowing down is not so very awful.
So I’m fiercely independent. So I can’t sit still. I’m a doer. I do have a list of tasks that constantly self-generates.
I’m wracked with maker-guilt at the measly amount of blog posts I’ve managed this month but my body demands that I take a frickin’ break.
I spent the summer arguing with myself about when I was going to chill. I planned long hours of peaceful reflection, film viewing, hours of devouring all the unread books I’ve got stashed but his leopard is finding it nearly impossible to change it’s spots.
I am impatient with myself. Work and care taking happen a little bit at a time and that will have to be okay. I will get better at knowing my limits.
And now for the giggles (gifts from my daughter ♥):
The green things are still growing. They might be a little ragged at the edges but still beautiful.
I wish there was a quicker way for humans to absorb knowledge. Something like plugging in your brain into a main source and choosing material to add to your lineup of knowledge, like adding songs on your iPod.
I want to know everything about mushrooms.
I tuned into a radio show last week and heard the most interesting things about mycelium. I believe one of the people I heard was Paul Stamets. I have just ordered his book Mycelium Running.
Did you know that mushrooms/mycelium were the first plant on the planet earth, that they came from star material? I guess we are all star material, really.
I cant wait to read this book.
Tremendously fun to blend the textures and colors.
The Mayans were into mushrooms. Terence McKenna, too. Aldous Huxley, etc.
Pretty lights, baby. In the mornings, especially in the cool months, I like to light the candles in my fireplace. I think of myself being
“A spark from the one divine fire”
Lighting the candles is all about gratitude and faith that we can all know our best selves, do good work and feel love.