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Fork in the Road?

Posted in dreams, Mind Power, writing with tags , on March 3, 2012 by darcyarts

My last fresh post here at DarcyArts was Nov. 3, 2011. The topic was death. I had been so pleased, after decades of reading up on life after death and NDEs, to hear that Steve Jobs last words were “Oh, wow! Oh, wow! Oh, wow!”

I could well imagine the awesome passage he was entering at that moment. Throughout history men and women have experienced spiritual journeys that have enabled them at times to see glimpses of the other world. We have a hunger for those altered states. There are many paths.

This blog is a record of my journey through discovering my own creative abilities. I have occasionally flashed back on elements of my life. I have shared lasting and momentary fascinations. My lapse in posting here has not been due to a lack of interest but rather a very real reduction in my energy level.

Over the course of the last three years, I have been running my Etsy shop, making things, and writing here, I noticed a slow decline. What I attributed to asthma and arthritis, or just getting old has turned out to be the dreaded big  “C.” It took nearly a year to get to get a diagnosis but, finally, last November the word was in.

I’ve had plenty of time to adjust to having my mind far outpace my body. I can think of so many things to do but I can’t physically do them. Very aggravating for an Aries with Gemini rising.

After much reflection I decided that I did not want DarcyArts to become a cancer blog. One can write about cancer when one regains strength. We can recall our misery, the heavy weight of going through chemo, but dude, if I regain some good amount of strength after chemo (last round in two weeks) I want to write about life. I suspect I’ve been living with cancer for years. With or without cancer, I know that I need to bask in the holy carnality of ever single second I have left to breathe and marvel at this journey of ours.

Once again, I hear Allen Ginsberg chanting.

I want to go to the ocean. I want to go the rest of my way here on earth with grace and love and patience. When I slip over I want to be able exclaim ” oh, wow!”

Pre-dawn Light

Posted in dreams, Mind Power, photos with tags , , on October 15, 2011 by darcyarts

Girls with Up-Dos

Posted in constructions, design, dolls, dreams, handmade, Mind Power, projects with tags , , , , on September 9, 2011 by darcyarts

Two girls are completely finished now. With all the distractions that have presented themselves over the last few months it took a very long time.

This series of dolls was created as a pleasurable indulgence. They are about play. They were also a project that could allow for some freedom. They do not have to evoke a certain likeness just an approximate one. It is more important that they are evocative but equally important is that I create something a little different.

It was important to work from the simplest cloth doll form. Nothing too fancy or heavily wrought, tweaked over, engineered. I deeply appreciate the cloth doll made from scrap, from available materials, created from nothing much to please a child of times gone by. That history, simplicity, authenticity moves me.

The embroidered faces of my first series of dolls wore out my patience. I create in a ball of fury and, being an Aries, that fury is strong but short-lived. Sitting for a long spell at the same task is very trying for me. ADD? Probably.

There is nothing like that initial flash of an idea and the desire to make it real. It’s delicate. It’s like mist. It rises and disintegrates so quickly.

Gotta get it while it’s hot.

This series of women in their lingerie, inspired by Egon Schiele’s sketches, was meant to be free of marketplace concerns.

Would anybody want them? Are they sellable?

These dolls are about exploring my ability to covey a particular aesthetic. They are about learning to control the language spoken by the materials.

I began using permanent markers, Prismacolor pencils, lips cut from cloth thereby reducing the amount of embroidery on the face.  I like the look of it and allows me to see results more quickly, to add color quickly.

I was not always happy with the way the embroidered lips turned out. Especially on my Mick Jaggers. I kept thinking that the lip thread could catch on something and be pulled out-of-place. Mick’s lips would be in disrepair. Egad.

The bigger the lips the more stitches and layers of thread were required. Hours and hours of stitching. It was growing impractical for production.

Experimental creations keep me hopping. I love the process of discovering of being in the moment not knowing how something will turn out.

It’s exciting.

Hair-dos have always been my favorite part of doing the dolls (after doing the face).

I love cutting shaggy dos but in this series I wanted a form that stood for the up do. I wanted to have a built mass/shape and I’ve added only a few tendrils. It isn’t too heavy.

Some dos on dolls in the first series were top-heavy. Poor Stevie had to have a leg-strengthening operation just to hold his head up.

O course, the beads didn’t help.

The second series of Lingerie Dolls will lead me back to the creation of dolls of women artists. I have the pictures and a list — Georgia O’Keeffe! Yayoi Kusama! Natalia Fabia! Alice Neel! Shall I go on?

Because time is what it is, because my desire fires and cools, because I see the creative process as beautiful ponies on a slowly turning carousel, I wait until a pretty one comes back around and then I jump on.

I dream of getting to get to them all eventually.

The Robyn Hitchcock doll is still up there — large, capable, exciting, shaking his silvery locks, twitching a little under the influence of his next musical move. ♥♥♥.

Dreams Say Obstreperous

Posted in dolls, dreams, handmade with tags , , , , on May 27, 2011 by darcyarts

In dreams last night I walked through a very simple place where the only element in the natural environment seemed to be orange sand. It was spare and creepy. There were motels and little diners as if the place was a tourist destination but why anyone would go there voluntarily was beyond my understanding.

I seemed to be walking through this bland place with my daughter. It felt like we had come upon it accidentally and we were anxious to get the hell out of there.

After sitting in a restaurant for a while the owner /manager of the place came over and handed me a paper that informed me that I had to write a 67- page paper as punishment for being obstreperous.

I may have committed some trespass of the rules of this odd place but I was in no way loud or engaged in any in any turbulent activity. I did not react while in the presence of the stereotypical shopkeeper — a skinny, tallish older dude draped in an apron, with a slicked back hair do. I was, however, very irritated by this turn of events.

I imagined sending in some triple-spaced drivel. Later, I decided I would defy the order.

Here I am at the keyboard with arms and hands aching from a long spell (six months) of doll orders. I told myself I would rest up at enjoy the lazy way of life. I confess, it is unknown to me. Time ticks and I want to keep moving before it kicks my ass.

My latest doll project came out very well but I cannot show it to you because it is a surprise for a very special and talented musician. ♥

I’ll blog it when it has been given to the intended recipient.

I am now intent on getting my teeth into three projects I’ve been moved to do. The post Victorian naughty ladies ala Egon Schiele, Mayan kings and beatnik gnomes are what I want to bring into fruition. I want these things in the DarcyArts shop for the holiday season.

I need to prep some Pink Sprinkle Donuts and Curly Stars, too.

It sure is a thrill to be busy working all year long! Ecstasy.

Thank you DarcyArts fans!

Dylan, Oprah, Pixar

Posted in Art, design, dolls, dreams, film, handmade with tags , , , , , on May 24, 2011 by darcyarts

Okay. Oprah’s shindig grossed me out for its orgy of everyone’s shameless self promotion. Madonna just had to let you know that she’s building a school in Malawi. Madge will not be out humanitarianed! Tom Cruise was all over Oprah like they were slumber party buddies. Eww! How could these ego maniacs resist? How many people will be watching these last two goodbye shows. Beyonce kicked A$$. Bumping and grinding to raise feminine consciousness. She was very fierce, really.

It’s Bob Dylan’s birthday  — the big 70. Bet Bob is a bit creaky but I think he was always that way though he does look angelic in those Woodstock photos surrounded by Sara and his sweet little babies.

And me, I’m putting the finishing stitches into my latest doll project and finishing a big plush pink donut.

Last night I was thrilled to find an order for a donut to be sent to Pixar Animation Studios! Yes — people who appreciate the cartoony dream world I try to inhabit. It makes me feel happy!

I love this work but my hands and arms need a vacation. A good night’s sleep will fix everything.

Prayers for healing from the violent chaos that is the weather these day, for healing the mean ignorance of those who think they know all the answers and prayers for more love and light.

Everybody I love you.

 

Toward the New Year

Posted in Art, design, dolls, dreams, etsy, family, film, food, rock n roll with tags , , , , , , , on December 20, 2010 by darcyarts

After finishing a last-minute Big Pink Sprinkle Kawaii style Donut order Saturday I’ve had time to rest and relax. I’m starting to feel like myself once again. For a while there I felt as if I was being sucked into a vortex of stitchery. I could see nothing else.

I reset my game, got organized, and actually had time to reflect on my handicraft. I felt pretty good about all the creations I’ve sent out into the world this season and said my little prayers that they arrived safely, on time and have found their way  into loving lives. ♥

The days ahead will find me enjoying the holidays.  This week as dear ones gather we will have delicious chili verde and fresh tortillas on the menu, sirloin-based beef stew, sharp cheddar cheese and homemade biscuits and lots of naughty sweets.

I’ll be making Soft Boys and soaking up cinema as I look forward to the high of the awards season.

In January the Golden Globes will be broadcast on the 16th, the Screen Actors’ Guild awards, the 30th.

The Academy Awards will be February 27th.

The Social Network, The Fighter, Black Swan, The King’s Speech and The Kids Are Alright, are the top of the list for Best Picture. The Academy Award nominees will be announced Jan. 25th.

I like that list a lot but must admit to having a bit of dread about seeing Black Swan. A sexual psychodrama revolving around ballet and all its dysmorphic junk strikes me as a little creepy.

The Kid’s Are Alright was pretty cute. I love Mark Ruffalo and Julianne Moore whose character dressed a lot like I do.

The Social Network was really a very entertaining rocket ride. Jesse Eisenberg was captivating. Once again, I gotta bow down to Justin Timberlake’s talent.

I cannot wait to see the magnificent Colin Firth and Geoffrey Rush in The King’s Speech.

It will be good to see Helena Bonham Carter outside her Bellatrix drag. Could she be distantly related to Led Zeppelin’s mighty drummer?

I do not like to see men hitting one another in the face for cash and I suffer from post-traumatic Trip-to-Boston syndrome but the actors in The Fighter are too good to miss.  Melissa Leo is grand, Amy Adams, too and Mark Wahlberg always rocks it.  Frank (4.0 once again this semester) and I will travel down to Anderson Prime 11, our number two pleasure palace, and see this flick this week.

This morning a trip into the kitchen work space revealed that my picture of Robyn Hitchcock had fallen off the window. I’ll take that as a sign that Robyn needs to be included in my next batch of rock dolls.

Yes, I see Brian Eno gazing over at us. I’m ready. Soon, Brian, soon.

I’m thinking of pairs — Brian Eno and Bryan Ferry.

Sets and mini sets of film-related dolls — The Royal Tenenbaums (thanks, Jordan) which might include a Wes Anderson doll. Making that happen would bring me back to a request that actually got me started on Etsy. A young man blew my mind by telling me he loved my painted portraits. Then he asked if I’d ever paint directors.

I was sorta sucked away from painting (but will return!) but I do think of the Soft Boys and Soft Girls as portrait/ memorial dolls. They are my mid-century inspired, secular retablos or laminas.

The dolls have put my hand back into portraiture and they will happily lead me back into painting. I want to paint portraits of the dolls. It’s a little loony but my process is my own.

Breathe Slowly

Posted in constructions, dreams, handmade with tags , , on November 22, 2010 by darcyarts

While the mountains that surround us turn white with snow it’s all about deep breaths and carrying on at DarcyArts.

Midway through this holiday crafting season I think I finally understand the popularity of the “Keep Calm and Carry On” poster.

My inner monologue sounds a lot like this: “Must keep moving forward. Must not pause long for daydreaming or longing for the currently unattainable. Keep stitching, bitch!”

Sometimes I get blurry. Sleep restores my gumption.

While I don’t really address myself as bitch, pulling Big Soft Color into the world is my magnificent obsession.

I’m trying to stay focused but there have been moments in which new ideas wiggle through the screen needing to find some sort of expression. Those are the loose noodles my sketch book catches. This is the natural process. The stimulus overflow will give rise to next year’s creations. Amen.

Must go now to work, work, work. Spin, spin, spin. Need to make space for Thanksgiving Joy.